Heart In Shadow

Another night passes by and without a surprise, you're on my mind once again just like before.
Since you somehow got the key to the city of my world, planted yourself firmly within my soul.
Time managed to keep us together for this long, forming an unbreakable bond between two best friends.
Can't have one without the other since we make an awesome team, always making each other smile and laugh.
Thought that I could keep things platonic with you, but along the way I let my heart speak to me.
Telling me that you're the perfect match I've been searching for and like a fool I listened to its voice.
'Cause now I found myself on a crossroad of trying to keep things normal and hiding my true feelings.

Yet I'm tired of pretending like you're just a best friend to me when really I'm in love with you.
I want to show you exactly how you brighten up my world, I want to show you what you mean to me.
But I'm still afraid even after two years of being friends, still afraid that I would end us.
Which is why I push my feelings to the side, let them sit there in the darkness even when I smile.
Yet I'm bursting at the seams, I'm losing control of my heart, and I'm craving for your affection.
So tell me how much longer do I have to keep my heart in the shadows before we fuck things up?

You come around and once again sparks fly between us that the electricity sends shivers down my spine.
Making me come alive after four years of being in a dormant state, you brought back an old me to life.
Never once thought that I could smile again and feel my heart beat against this chest of mine.
Somehow you completely won me over and gained my trust, told you secrets I would only share with lovers.
Everything fell into place with the two of us and our feelings grew more and more, but something was missing.
A piece of the puzzle to fully complete us as being together as one; one that doesn't involve sexuality.

'Cause love is love and what we share between us can only be classified as a couple madly into each other.
But in reality you're just my best friend, one who I have extremely deep feelings for that won't go away.
A voice in my mind tells me you're the one, the one that completes my very own being in this universe.
So I'll continue to hold on just a little bit longer and be patient even when it's killing me inside.
Since I want to show you how special you make me feel, show you exactly what a true romance is all about.
But I'll keep my heart in the shadows until the time is right when we both can see eye to eye.

What I feel for you is completely true since I've never felt this strongly towards someone before.
You somehow find the right words to say to ease the chaotic storm inside my head and heart.
And you always find a way to bring back that smile you've fallen in love with just like the world.
Without you standing by my side, I would be completely lost on this path I'm currently walking on.
Since you keep leading me forward in this life with our hands intertwined, our souls connected by rope.
Forgive me when I keep spilling my heart in your hands since I'm trying my very best to hold it inside.

But I'm tired of pretending like you're just my best friend since really I'm in love with you.
I want to show you exactly how amazing you truly are, I want to show you my completed heart you restored.
Yet I'm still afraid to openly express these feelings to you even after two years of being best friends.
So I continue to push my emotions into the darkness even when I keep showing you the light of my world.
Even though I'm bursting at the seams, losing control over this object in my chest, and wanting to kiss you.
Tell me how much longer must I keep my heart lying in the shadows before we both fuck things up?

Written on: 4/22/2014
Written by: LostLove223