So like after finally finishing my poem based on a friend and the situation I was witnessing, I got like a good amount of reaction of people crying or coming close to it whereas Antuwuan's reaction was different.

Like I knew my writing talent was good, but I didn't know that I could write so deep as witnessed in "Watched Her Break". Antuwuan was like, "Omg Berto, that was so deep and really sad, It makes me wonder if there is something that you're not saying since in your writings you express so much emotion" and I told him that I have nothing to really hide from people. I'm an open book now compared to before.

I know in the past I used to keep everything in and if people wanted to know what I was thinking or really feeling then I'd just point them to my writings, but now I've pretty much opened up a whole lot and don't keep that many secrets. Of course I still have some bones in my closet, but I'm just not ready to talk about them or anything. Of course later in time I will either through journal entry or poem.

Anyways, Antuwuan is just pretty much amazed that I'm such a deep writer and that he never met anyone else who writes as deep as I do other than himself. The different between us though is that he specializes in happy stuff whereas I specialize in sad stuff. I like his songs that he writes too since they're really inspirational and everything. I just find it interesting that we're so alike, but at the same time total opposites at some points.

Other than Antuwuan, I noticed that I've tremendously grown as a writer over the past years and like I dunno. Even now sometimes I just don't realize my own talent. I keep downgrading myself as an amateur writer or someone just starting out on a brand new adventure even when I know in the back of my mind that I've been writing since the age of 14. I guess it's my lack of self-confidence that keeps me back instead of moving forward.

I know I can write about almost anything, but for some odd reason I'm stuck or more like in favor of the subject of "Lost Love" that was created for me by some people in my life and all. Oh well, I'll stop rambling now.

-LostLove223